My C has been with the same child care provider since he has 8 weeks old.
That is around...
Approximately of course.
As a family we decided it would be in C's best interest to move to a school setting.
After several meltdowns and crying fests from this Mama, I was on board.
I knew it was exactly what he needs but convincing me that he is growing up is hard.
Hard on me.
He needs the social interaction, the attention, the learning.
As we love our day care lady I never expected "breaking up" with her would be so hard.
I remember giving myself the "pep talk" driving to drop C off.
I told myself I would hand her the letter and then explain.
As I walk in, I put C down, hand her the letter and then...
I start bawling like a baby.
I couldn't stop.
I could barely speak and get out what I needed to tell her.
This was harder than I thought.
I never imagined myself getting so emotional.
But there I was crying in her living room.
I felt so guilty,
like I was betraying her.
Is this a normal feeling?
In my heart of hearts I know this is the best thing for C.
But it's hard,
she has taken such good care of him and he loves her.
I have so many concerns,
what if he doesn't transition well?
What if the new people at the school don't take as good of care of him?
What if he refuses to nap and is tired all the time?
What if he doesn't like the food they give him?
What if he doesn't like it?
What if I don't like it?
Have you ever broken up with a child care provider?
How did everyone cope?
This parenting stuff is rough.
My heart is in a constant struggle
from wanting to keep C a little baby vs. doing what is right for him and his development.
I hate that he is growing up so fast.
But boy is he turning out to be such a fun, smart little guy.